My life's getting busy day by day, lots of works coming one and another till i get messed! Fuh...that's what life meant rite? There's nothing seem to be easy in this small world, although you thought you could handle it. Every day I went to bed almost 5am and woke up at 9am. Mama sure bising giler kalau tahu. But what to do ma....my eyes couldnt close and kept blinking all night long on bed. Dun worry ya ma, i was fine.
Suddenly i was thinking of my cousin, they married couples year ago. My brother in law is Sarawakian and my sista originally from Perak but working in Penang. Since married, they are leaving apart reason being of so many factor. How does it work huh?Suprisingly, they had two baby now and both are damn cute (kind of miss them tremendously)....Eventhough it seems hard to cope with weird life like that, they managed quite well cuma sumtimes i could see the babies felt uncomfortable with the father...mana taknya, abah balik 5,6 bulan sekali. It doesnt mean abah tak sayang you dear....just that abah trying his best to give you a better life.
Terfikir juga, sedangkan yang duduk serumah pun boleh diduga berbagai dugaan, apa la pula yang jauh di mata ni. If i was in the situation, hmmmm i dont know how Im gonna carry it, though i could say 'go with the flow' but when the time's around, takut tak boleh nak handle.
Some people said to me, susah kalau ada hubungan jarak jauh sebab kita tak tahu apa peristiwa yang menguji saban minit. Kesetian mungkin bisa rapuh, kasih sayang mungkin juga akan pudar dan kilau cinta semakin kelam. Al maklumlah, memandang cinta dari zahiriah dan menyentuh naluri dengan jasad lebih mendalamkan erti kasih sayang, rather than just based on trust itself. While people stick to their own opinion, i was tottaly disagree of what does they been thought. Honestly, the honesty and trustness are the best elements pouring your love. Although we cant see the truth of trustness, we'll be more passionate.
Tapi kadang tu, kita mana boleh terlalu yakin kan? Cukuplah dengan sekadar menyerah diri pada yang Esa di samping memohon doa agar jodoh yang ditentukan berkekalan. Macam my cousin tu la, duduk dipisahkan lautan tapi zuriat dah pun menambah ke angka dua. Kasih sayang pastinya makin mendalam walau sedikit pengorbanan terpaksa ditelan. I think I should ask them, what made you be more stronger and patient? Dont you think your babies gonna missed lots of love while you apart? Or maybe this is what they planned to be?
Whatever it is, i will always support you guys and always pray for your happiness even sometimes i was thought like a childish ('kesian kat baby sebab tak dapat kasih sayang dari mak bapa secara belaian harian'). Insyaallah, must be a great compasation yang Allah s.w.t akan berikan kelak.
p/s: Kalau kena kat diri sendiri tak tahulah macam mana nak handle agaknya, walaupun sekarang ni pun dah kira cinta jarak jauh gak la.
Now, time for me to paksa mata pejam and dream and dream and dream......zzzzzzzzz